Psalms 26:2-3 “Examine me, O Lord and try me, Test my mind and my heart. For Thy lovingkindness is before my eyes, and I have walked in Thy truth.”
Desperate. When you are working your time is spent on work thoughts for 8-12 hours per day. When you are unemployed your time is spent on getting a job. For 8-16 hours a day, and when you sleep. You are on the computer. You are networking with friends and colleagues. You fill out countless applications on line. You send out hundreds of resumes. And slowly, it becomes an obsession. Getting a call. Talking to recruiters. Sometimes you do get a hit, and then a phone interview. And then you wait. You may get asked for on on-site interview. Or you hear nothing. Your time is spent daily following up leads, getting more information, looking at job sites and praying. I asked the Lord to examine me, test my mind and heart for any faults of my own. Faults that haunt you. What have I done wrong? What should I do now? I knew God loved me, and would use this time for His glory. I studied the scriptures and slowly begin to accept the truth. God loves me. He made me. He is kind. He will take care of me. He has in the past. I must wait on the Lord.
What am I desperate for? Where is all my time spent? What do I need to know about myself that God is revealing to me?